Headed For The Convocation
I leave for the Youth Convocation on tomorrow. Carlton is half mad at me because I told him that he couldn't go with me. His mother talked to him, but I think she made it worse.
I asked Eld. Franklin if they could come down to the convocation on Thursday and Friday. I could take Carlton to the zoo on Thursday. Eld. Franklin said he would think about it. I told Carlton about it. Now, he is bugging his father.
Thank goodness.
By Carlton Franklin
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Much Better
I am doing much better these days. I called Evg. MaCulvie and asked him to go look in on my mother for me. That was Keyva's suggestion.
My mother wouldn't let Evg. MaCulvie in the house. He told her that I had asked him to come by and check on her. She told him that she was fine. Thankfully, my idiot brother wasn't at the house. Evg. MaCulvie told my mother about me getting into Xenia. She told him to tell me that she was proud of me. That was cool.
I asked Evg. MaCulvie how my mother looked. He said that she looked fine. I don't think I believe him, though. He said that she had told him to tell me not to worry about her, just to focus on my education and my music.
I miss my mother. I keep praying for her and my brother.
M.B.Vick
Shake This Funk
Well, Sunday was horrible. I didn't feel like going to church. Eld. Franklin went off on me. I felt like crap, but I guess that didn't matter because I am the Minister of Music. I guess I can't have a bad day.
Eld. Franklin and I didn't speak until Wednesday. We didn't say much, but I guess we were cool.
Keyva came over on Thursday. She brought me some of her mother's Macaroni & Cheese. I love Macaroni & Cheese, that's my favorite thing to eat ever. It was good, too. I went in the kitchen and heated it up. I ate the whole pan. Keyva was looking at me like I was crazy.
After I finished the Macaroni & Cheese, she asked, "Are you coming to choir rehearsal tonight?" I said, "No." She asked, "Why not?" I said, "Cause I don't want to. I don't feel like playing music these days." She shook her head, "Oh well, I guess you won't be getting paid." I made a face. She did have a point. I didn't get paid for last week. I said, "I just don't feel like playing. What if I bust out crying while I am praying?" She smiled, "Well, then I will come over to the organ and hug you. We are your family now, if you are going through, then we are going through, too. Besides, church was not good at all without the music." I laughed. I almost believed her when she said that the church members were going through with me. I said, "Those folk up at the church aren't going to care that my brother cursed me out, called me a nerd, told me to stay where I am, and that my mother didn't want me there." Keyva had a strange look on her face when I told her that. She looked like she was going to cry or something. I touched her arm and said, "Are you okay?" Keyva said, "Yea, I see why you don't want to play. Have you talked to your mother?" I said, "Naw, my brother won't let me talk to her." Keyva said, "Why don't you call her when he is not there?" I said, "My brother is always there. I don't have a traditional job. I think he may be doing some criminal from the house." Keyva looked puzzled and said, "Dang boy, you got issues." I said, "Naw, I got problems." Keyva said, "It's a good thing God got you out of that situation when He did. You might have gotten hurt."
I hadn't even thought about that. God had gotten me away from my family before something crazy happened. Instead of thanking Him for protecting me, I was sitting around feeling sorry for myself. I was an idiot. God had placed me down here with people who love me and I was being ungrateful.
Keyva interrupted my thoughts when she said, "You do realize that I am here, right?" I said, "Yea, I was thinking about something." Before she could ask me what, I kissed her on the jaw and said, "I'll be at choir rehearsal tonight. I gotta go take care of something. I'll see you later." I walked her to the door and she left.
I emailed Eld. Franklin and told him everything that was going on and asked if we could talk when he got home. He emailed me back and said yea.
Eld. Franklin and I talked for a long time. I was late for choir rehearsal because we talked so long. I apologized and now Eld. Franklin and I are cool.
I got to choir rehearsal and asked Marcus if I could talk to the choir. He said I could after the devotion. I went and sat by Keyva. I asked her, "What should I tell them?" She smiled and said, "Just tell them what you feel comfortable telling them." I wasn't sure what I was going to say.
Marcus gave me the floor and I said...
I apologize for not being here on last week. I was depressed and feeling sorry for my self. I had tried to talk to my mother and my brother was mean to me and said some very mean things to me on the phone. He wouldn't let me talk to her either. I am worried about my mother. I hadn't realized that God had gotten me out of the situation at my mother's house, which could have been a bad situation. I am still a little upset about what happened, but I am going to keep praying and keep trusting God. I hope I didn't let you all down. If I did, I am sorry.
Why was everybody crying when I got through, including Marcus? I felt better having told them what I told them. No one seemed upset about me missing the services.
We finished with choir rehearsal. A lot of the choir members came up to me and hugged me and told me to be encouraged. Most of them said that they were going to be praying with me. I felt so good. This would have never happened at my old church. One of the older ladies in the choir walked up to me and said, "Son, I am sure that your mother misses you and is thinking about you. Just wait on God and He will let you talk to her." That lady gave me the best mother hug I have had in along time. I almost started crying lying on her shoulder.
I think I am back in everyone's good graces. At least I hope I am.
Thank You Lord for getting me out of a situation that could have been dangerous for me. I apologize for feeling sorry for myself. Amen.
Depressed
I'm depressed. I called my mother. My brother answered the phone. He called me a nerd after he cursed me out. He said that he didn't care about what college I got into.
"If you can't bring no money into the family, we don't need you. Stay your behind wherever you are and leave us alone. Mama don't want you here anyway."
You would have thought that would have been enough punishment, but no, I wanted more. I called my father and told him.
He said, "Ok. I hope you ain't calling me to ask for money."
I haven't been out of the room all day. I haven't talked to anyone either. I don't feel like it. I didn't even go to choir rehearsal. I am probably in all kinds of trouble with Marcus. Oh well.
M.B.Vick
I Told Keyva, Wish I Could Tell My Family
I told Keyva about getting into Xenia. She was happy for me. It was cool.
I am feeling all emotional right now. I want to tell my mother about getting into Xenia, but I know that my brother wouldn't give the phone to my mother. Sis. Franklin asked me if I called my family and told them. I told her no. Then I went to my room and cried.
I gotta stop doing that.
I called Evg. MaCulvie and told him. He and his wife were excited for me. He asked if I had called my family. I held back the tears. I cried when I got off the phone with him.
I wish I could tell my family about getting into school. I don't even think they would care.
M.B.Vick
